Is it just me????

Is it just me or is baby fever in the air????
I have it bad, and so does my roommate, along with a few of my classmates.
Doesn this mean Im growing up? I have always said I want children but never wanted them anytime soon. Now I cant stop thinking about them. I get jealous when I see a pregnant lady. (wow!!! I cant believe Im putting this on here)
I baby sat on Wednesday and that made even worse than what it was before.

Well to help off set everything, I keep reminding myself that I need to just worry about finishing school and finding a job. Then I can think about babies and such.

I miss my nephews and wish I could see them all the time.

A little Update

So my goal is to keep blogging. I'm behind on it.

School is crazy like it always has been. I got a 74 on a test, which is the worst test score I have gotten in the two years I've been in my program. It was a blow to the ego and I was brought right back to reality. I have to study equally on all my class, not just on a few of them. I'm not going to lie, I haven't really put much into school this last year like I did last year. Things have just comes easily--- until now. Sadface.

I had a great Valentine's day weekend. My roommate and I exchanged fun gifts. She got me alcohol and I got her stuff related to chocolate. I have never known anyone who loves chocolate more than here. I also got her a zodiac book. We have been hooked on reading the stuff. Its great. ( My normal characteristics to follow)

Peter came to my apartment on his lunch break to surprise me with flowers. They were beautiful Tulips. It was really sweet of him to do that. I didn't get him anything cause I told him that I wasn't going to.

Then I went out to dinner with my sister for her birthday. She got into a car accident with a city bus. The bus rear ended her, But don't you worry, I gave her the best gift ever. A pimpenstein that says " Ho Fo Sho". What can I say, that's what she wanted for her birthday.

continuing on--

I went to Bockfest this past weekend with Peter. It was really fun. Its a outdoor "drinking" fest where you hang out and drink beer. Of course I was the sober driver because I don't like beer. We had to get back to the hotel somehow.

It was so cold out that I froze. Every picture I look like I'm in pain. Oh wait that's because I was. I couldn't feel my toes and the rest of my feet where in so much pain from being frozen and wet. Oh well I was worth it and I had a blast and I was with the best of company. Pete you have some great friends.

Along with the trip I got to see parts of Minnesota that I have never seen before. I got to go to Willmar where Pete is from. Ate Jake's taco pizza. It was AMAZING!!!!

I will get more photos up here once my internet is connected tonight.

The Ex

So there is nothing more annoying to me right now than my Ex having a pity party for himself once again at my expense. I get it, I broke his heart. He has every right to feel like shit and express himself. But I don't like when he is saying to me that others are telling him that I felt I was better than him. Or that I was leeching off of him. I don't like him texting me and saying that he found out I was cheating on him from one of my closest friends when I never did. I'm not the one who slept next to his best friends younger sister claiming to "protect her" on multiple occasions. I'm not that shitty of a person and I dont need him texting me with what people think. Im done caring about what others thinks.

Let me say this to be clear. I was not in love with him and I was not happy. I was with him for three years and for the past year I have been trying to fall back in love with him. I tried everything. I read books, Internet articles. I talked with my friends. I used the excuse that I was stressed out from school and I should just wait until I was done before making decisions. I told myself it would get better as long as I waited. But things didn't get better. I tried telling him the things that crawled under my skin to get him to stop. He would for a little bit and then start right back up. I started going crazy in my head and finally I couldn't take it anymore. I had to end it.
I'm sorry I broke your heart. I never wanted you to feel pain, but I couldn't take the pain I was feeling any longer.

Me and Peter

Me and Stacy. The roommate who sits on the purple couch with me.

So I figured I would start blogging today. Not sure why, but I am.
Let see, Im in the last semester of my nursing program and I feels like they have forgotten to teach us some major points. We are constantly asked what are the most important things to do for your patients, but they never tell us what to do if something bad does happen. For example: We are told constantly to maintain your patients airway. But they never tell us how. I guess I have to look up that one on my own.
Besides them not teaching us lots of things, Its stressful. Im taking it day by day and making it. I only have four more months left. Then I have to pass the boards and find a job. Let me tell you they are not many in the state of MN. So I may have to look else where.
Life outside of school is going good. I feel like I need another job to occupy more of my time. I have been sitting on the purple couch a lot lately and Im getting used to it. I dont like it. I need to be doing something.
I have a great roommate/ friend who joins me on the purple couch. I have to say that we rub off on each other and will most likely gain a new roommate 15 ( a.k.a freshman 15).
I also have a great new guy in my life. I guess he is not very new. I have been friends with him for almost two years now. We have a lot in common and share a lot of the same values in life.
-something I have learned about myself: I need to be with someone who has values and will go to church.-
His name is Pete and I think he is handsome and sexy. I get all red in the face thinking about him.

Well I think thats enough for now.